Fwd: disappearing into nothingness

have you ever had the feeling that you are being torn to shreds?
that your existence may no longer be a reality- that you will cease?

there is a strange restlessness as i feel the diminishing, the daily cutting away

there is no fight left in me

only salt tears which seem lacerate as they slide down

i don't even know what i am mourning

because isn't it my deepest desire to stop being?

perhaps it is what comes after that scares me

the great unknown?

or perhaps nothing at all?