Tuesday, November 4, 2014

Lost...

Suddenly everything you do goes wrong
Everything you touch, crumbles and falls
What you are left with is the touch from last night
And memories from the streets you wandered together

Is this what the end's going to be like?
Is this where it all stops?

Saturday, September 13, 2014

Happiness

We are never as significant as we imagine ourselves to be. Nor are we as insignificant.
We are terribly average human beings running behind unattainable dreams and a chance at happiness.
We attribute a lot of importance to that brief fleeting mirage-like idea of happiness.
But happiness stems from ignorance. Mostly...
The ignorance of where you stand in life. Or where you are not welcome. Or where you are not really needed... just considered as a freak show for temporary amusement...
Not being aware of reality is blissful. It's easier deluding yourself, telling yourself you are happy because of something. Because of someone.
Better to stay real. And perhaps even stay unhappy. At least there are no expectations. No aspirations.
The solution lies in extricating oneself as soon as possible from all delusions. Of waking up before nightmares begin.

Monday, September 1, 2014

Dreaming...

With my eyes open
And it's beautiful all around...

Saturday, August 30, 2014

Happiness is...

Feeling beautiful just because he says I am! :-)

Sunday, August 17, 2014

subject to approval

Some days I am just that bit alarmed by how much you matter to me....
And then I think of how much it will hurt if you left...
And then how everything feels calm and in turmoil at the same time when you are there
And then the deafening silence after a conversation ends...

Some days I celebrate each thing you said... not necessarily because they are nice things but just that I want to believe each word and just be... Happy
Some days I get into a rut thinking if I should really think this way about us... do we even have a future? Where are we going? What is to become of us?...

Some days I just want to let go and let you know - everything!
And other times, I want to hide each bit of you and especially how you make me feel -deep inside - like some selfish giant with his precious garden!

So I swing between two extremes...
Just thinking of you and wanting to be with you...
And sometimes just being scared of the whole idea of being able to touch you or talk to you... because what would I have left if I didn't even have that?
 

Monday, August 4, 2014